"Sex, drugs and rock 'n' roll, take out the drugs and you got more time for the other two" -Stephen Tylor
Insomniac

In the middle of the night
As I try to sleep
All I can see are the shadows casting upon the walls as they frighten me to weeping
In the middle of the night
As I try to sleep
All I can hear is the tick-tick-ticking of the clock as it drives me mad
In the middle of the night
As I try to sleep
All I can smell is the cold air as it slowly freezes through my lungs
In the middle of the night
As I try to sleep
All I can think about is the past days dues and the lonely of days to come
In the middle of the night
As I try to sleep
All I can feel is the fear and rage from deep within my soul as it tries to excape my fingertips
In the middle of the night
I know I can not sleep
For I am the insomniac

Trust
Through back stabbing brothers
Through broken heart and pain
Through the mind bending suffering
That drove me insane
I learned that trust is a sacred thing
It haunts you while it's there
I learned to trust no human being
So my trust is very rare
So many people, so many times
Have left me far behind
They say they're there they say they care
But I'm never really in their mind
Driving pain from thriving pleasure
And they treat me like a toy
I look at them and as a friend I shall always treasure
When all along, all they've done to my mind is destroy



Fuck off
All this rage inside of me
Just makes me wanna die
Yelling out histerically
Just makes me sit and cry
When I want the world to go away
It turns and and starts to laugh
Insuring it will stay today
Just to tourment my ass
And when I want everyone to just fuck off
They won't leave me at bay
They just keep talking and they won't stop
Even though I really want them away
I gotta get out
I gotta run
The only way that
I'll ever have fun
But for now I'm stuck in Hell
Waiting for eternity
I hear the bell
But it all seems blury
Just demons fucking with my head
Maybe playing their tricks
It still makes me feel so dead
Those stupid fuckin' pricks
People tell me "it will get better"
Well how the Hell do they know?
As my cheeks keep getting wetter
I feel that I'm ready to go
They don't know me
They're not inside
They can't tell me
That I shouldn't hide
It won't go away
The feeling gets stronger
It keeps my will at bay
For eternity no longer
That pain that lie within
It begins to seep
As I cut deep within
This heart I wish not keep
To fragile for earth
To good for man
Untill my rebirth
I shall love all I can
Though this hate deep down inside of me
The one that makes me feel dead
It can't excape all the pain I seek
Though it still fucks with my head



Put me Through
As I lay, weak and weary
I begin to ponder of my theory
Why are we hear
Why do we fear
And is love really true
For if it is then why did I loose
The one in wich my love grew
Forever breaking
Always aching
For the love that never shows
In my deepest darkest hour
I've stooped to an all time low
Depression anger suicide
Every day I waqnt to die
The hunger for love grows dark and deep
As my soul takes the final leap
Into the abyss
For all this ruined bliss
Turns me into the darkness
As I long for the kiss
OF the one that I miss
I long for her love
To put me above
But I've lost my chance
In the midsummers glance
So now I await
For my sudden fate
To live or to die
To weap and to cry
Where do I go now
Will I ever figure out why or how
I don't believe it to be true
But maybe the answer lies within you

Come to an End
Day by day
Sorrow grows deeper
Inch by inch
On comes the reaper
Nothing can save my soul now
It's to late
Everything gone
I've been to far
But life's been so long
Though there may be nothing up there
That's because I hold it all in here
You think what you see
But I feel it
This is what has ruined me
Throug heartbreak, pain, and crazy shit
I feel my soul has gone
It's left me empty inside
I feel my soul has gone
It's left me empty inside
I feel that somethings missing
Sanity, love, and pride
This concrete slab beneath us
You know it's just a floor
But I feel sacred ground underneath
Before we killed what was here
The very though so sickens me
It has me so I can not move
The fear the chill the sudden though
What lies beneath, what's died and rots